I've been thinking about something, and I'm just going to type and see what happens.
I know that God places at times and places in our lives for a reason, or at the very least, he works in our lives to accomplish his purposes even if/when things we do are contrary to his will for us.
I don't have a (paying) job yet--I've been keeping busy at home, and I have plenty of things to do to fill my days. But it's been frustrating, not being able to make money. I've applied at a couple places, and I know I need to apply elsewhere as well.
But it's been making me wonder, am I using my time well, even though I don't have a job? Am I using my time to serve others and by doing so serve the Lord? Am I using extra free time to be in fellowship with him? Am I living my life intentionally, for a purpose, or am I just 'winging it' and kind of flying by the seat of my pants?
It feels like that sometimes, although the days are settling into a routine of sorts. I cook. I clean. I go shopping for groceries. I do laundry every week. I keep the house in order. But that list looks so pathetic when I actually see it written out.
We had friends over last night. We're having some young people from our church here tonight, going to a movie and having them here for games and cookies, one other thing I need to do this afternoon (bake).
I try to have the house in order and myself looking nice when my husband comes home from work.
I don't have many friends in town right now, but I'm trying to keep in touch with the ones that are. We see hubby's family at least once every couple weeks.
So, I'm trying, to have a purpose in life right now, and to glorify God in what I'm doing. My vocation at this moment is to be a wife and homemaker, and although that might seem like a short list of responsibilities, I'm trying to do my very best at them to be a blessing to my husband first and foremost, and everyone else we come in contact with as well.
I feel like I'm defending myself...to myself. Which I shouldn't have to. Maybe I'm just trying to figure out what it is I'm doing and why. But I know that even the in simplest things that I do to serve others, I'm serving God. By loving my husband I'm loving our God who made him and who gave us to each other. Feeding friends is like having Christ at my table. What a blessing, what an honor it is, to serve God in these vocations he's given me!!! Thank you Jesus :)